It Never Ends.

Monday

well, this isnt going to get me anywhere. no one is here to read this and no one is hear to validate these feelings. no one is here to listen. i miss him so much. yes, it is smarter. yes, it is better. but i am just lonely without him here. what am i to do when all i can love is the one thing that i cannot. what am i to say when he tells me he loves me? i cannot say it back. oh but i do. i do. i do. what am i to say when he tells me he misses me, i must hold back i cannot go on. like this, or that. the boundires and lines and curves that we must go around. i want will have to can must fight to keep waiting. keep pushing, praying, proceeding.

i wish there was someone who could hold him while im away, tell him everythings ok.

that i love him, that i need him and that im never giving up.

1 comment:

annie morgan said...

what i know goes like this:

"Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, 'This is the way; walk in it.'"

[isaiah 30:20-21]

you are loved, jessica lynn vickery.